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Uhm, a loot has been going on lately.
Long story short; I have a therapist now, and a psychiatrist and everything. I am going into this treatment, for eating disordered people. so yeah, I have to change this blog. It will be a lot more positive and I’ll do my best to make it happy and healthier.
I can’t go on like this, my life is a living hell. Even though I’m still fat, I can’t lose weight because my therapist will get me inpatient, and I really can’t be arsed with that.
(Inpatient as in put me into a mental hospital.. for those who do not understand.)
| Me: | oh man this is easy |
| Me: | im bored |
| Me: | why am i starting to get tired already |
| Me: | need water |
| Me: | how long has it been? |
| Me: | ONLY 8 MINUTES?! BS!! |
| Me: | okay im not gunna look at the time for this whole song |
| Me: | SHIT i looked |
| Me: | i hate this song |
| Me: | i hate running why am i running |
| Me: | am i skinny yet |
| *after run* | |
| Me: | that was awesome lets do it again!!! |
What I had today;
Small carrot bite. (20cal)
I feel fat. :/
but, I said no to pizza and ice cream. Ugh.
I binged.
So much.
I hate myself. Can’t even fucking throw up because my sister is watching my ass.
I hope she goes out tonight, so I can throw it all up.
